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Then this matron comes over and tells me I have to tell you to be a big girl and take care of your sister. How do I explain this to you? I promised you I'd find you if it took the rest of my life. We hung on to each other as long as they allowed us to. Then you were gone. When I walked out of the courthouse, people were laughing and everything was continuing on as usual. I couldn't understand it. I wanted to scream at them, they stole my children, please, somebody please help me. My next thought was to die. All I could hear was your last words and remember your touch. Something in me actually did die then. I can't explain it. It just is. My last meeting at CSS I was told they wanted to have me committed for shock treatments because I wasn't accepting my loss the way they thought I should. I told him again, I hoped he rotted in hell. Even that's too good for him. I want you both to know this, I love you as much today as the day I
gave birth to you. I still have the nitemares of you crying for me and
I can't find you. I don't know who made the calls, who took you, or
even how they found you. They must have watched our every move. I made
a promise to you that I'd find you and I'm still trying. You are my
only children. If I couldn't have you I would have no more. I kept that
promise to myself. With Love Amani - I know all of you wonder where I got
the name I use on the web. It belongs to a beautiful wolf. His name
in the Blackfoot language means to speak the truth. We have a lot in
common this wolf and I. He's persecuted just for being alive. He has
no voice in what happens to him as I didn't. He's part of the Indian
heritage and religion but that makes no difference. Greed is at the
forefront again just as it is for the adoption business. If you have
children and grandchildren please take a moment to view the WERC site.
These are God's creations too. This planet is big enough for all of
us. I wish all of you searching God's speed with the answers to your
questions and may you find peace with the last piece to the puzzle.
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